It’s been 9 years since I started this blog and the idea of writing a monthly excerpt of my life, without any particular purpose, nor audience, kept me very happy up until now. It was an important ritual for me, myself and I for processing my thoughts and practising writing on any given topic which I felt like doing for all these years. At some point I also managed two blogs which was challenging and rewarding at the same time.

Lusofonetica has been a companion through some of the most important changes in my life: leaving my life in Barcelona, starting up and exploring a very inspirational life in Berlin, exciting travels around the world, thought processing, sharing music inspirations, being both happily single and in a relationship, moving back to Spain – to Malaga, surviving the pandemics, and everything related on the way. Looking back, I feel I lived 30 years, not 9! It’s been an intense, rewarding but also energy-draining period of my life, as your late 20s-late 30s should exactly be. Writing helped me stay focused and document the days go by. Possibly, it helped me process or delay (not entirely sure if it’s not on the way) the famous mid-life crisis. Even though the worst identity crisis happened for me possibly shortly before turning 30.

Until now, I truly believe in the power of writing as improving your thinking, and I expanded it in the various forms. This is also why I left most of the social media 5 years ago, and decided to focus in words more than in the images. Over 4 years ago I started analog journaling which accompanied me through my move back to Spain, the pandemics, life changes and led to writing a longer piece of a personal story this year. I am still working on perfecting it and wondering if ever publishing it – I love the feeling of freedom the writing gives you, while suffering from the imposter syndrome (especially when knowing how GPT tools can outperform the traditional creators). 

I also tried maintaining existing and new relationships without the usage of social media, which has been challenging at times, however possible in most cases. I decided however to selectively return to some of them, and deleting completely the others (guess which ones – XD – pun intended), and experiment, how will this affect my attention span, mental health, social life and further work/life development. In a way, it feels like a lost battle, but I struggle to find the reasons to resist it for the sake of it. It’s almost like being vegan for a few years – it felt great and served the purpose until it didn’t. I still avoid eating meat and diary, but am no longer radical about it, seeing certain benefits in the varied diet. Or like detoxing on a regular basis. All the decisions are fully reversible as anything in life, and there is also space, time and energy for whatever one feels like doing. Freedom, especially of choice, being one of the values I struggle to compromise with.

I also believe in the power of closure and making space for the new things, before starting up. This is also why the thought of moving on from Lusofonetica popped in my head already a while ago, as it stopped sparking the same level of joy in me, like it did at the beginning. The purpose of the blog evolved in the past 9 years multiple times, as well. The world has changed dramatically, and I consciously choose the optimism over despair, feeling mostly inspired by the New, even though at times the anxiety, anger and rebel kicks in. I remain critical and sober about the events in the world which honestly don’t bring too much optimism in me. In order to continue living, I choose to participate, create, influence and work in the sectors which are relevant for the change.

I also need mental space to radically focus and to prioritize my next steps in work/life, which are still very much uncertain. It is a very special place to be: at times you feel the world is an opportunity, and at times you desist.

I am not saying goodbye, but so long to Lusofonetica as I need the time, energy and space to go through my next stage of life, very different to what I have done in the past 9 years. If anyone feels disappointed by my decision, I respect it. I don’t think this blog served for anyone else than myself, which is the main reason to do it or not to do it. I will keep you posted about whatever comes next, as you know, I can’t live without a creative output in my life. Thank you.